registered democrat, but i am questioning my affiliation, anyone else facing this challenge?

i have been democrat all my adult life, but at the age of 45 and during all this political turmoil we are in, i am questioning my party.  there was a time early in my voting years when i truly felt that being democrat wa the way to go.  but this presidency and this administration has me in complete turmoil.  i still have democratic views, but i also see so republicans point of view...  not many i admit, but i dont feel onboard with many of the current democratic views either.  maybe i should just go non partisan and make decisions by issues only.  i just dont know.  i feel like the democratic party has changed, its not what it used to be, maybe i am an 'old democrat' definitely not one of these new democrats who want socialism, thats not what i want.  i am really having a hard time with this... anyone else having these troubling inner turmoils?